The Notebook

Here in American it seems that we strive to find the "American Dream." The "American Dream" to me is represented in the movie The Notebook. The thing that I want most in live is feeling the love of my significant other. When I watch the movie I become so overwhelmed with emotion. I cry, because I am filled with so much sadness, emptiness and loneliness that by the end of the movie i can only hope that one day I can have all those same emotions and love that the characters have. Noah and Allie had a romantic relationship filled with passion, happiness, craziness, and especially love. Here is a clip in case you are not familiar with the movie. http://youtube.com/watch?v=S3G3fILPQAU
When I see people in the street especially a couple displaying this type of affection (as shown in the clip) I get so angry. Not specifically at them but what they have and what I don't have. I become hurt and frustrated so much that I want to run over to them and punch them in the hear for being able to express those emotions and most important because they have one another. Do I actually do it? N0, although if I really had no control over myself that is what I would do. Just like Noah I become so bottled up that I become a completely different person.
I tend to think of myself as firecracker. I am so full of emotion and passion and I am just waiting to for that person who has the same firecracker qualities and can not wait until 4Th of July (when we meet) to explode into this amazing piece of chemistry. Sometimes I believe that my expectations are to high, I tend to jump right in and i am willing to hand anyone the torch to make me explode, but when they use a wet match it tends to make me fizzle out and all I am left with is the pain of the burst.
I often struggle because I know I am capable of expressing these emotions but I dwell on past experiences and become discouraged asking myself, Will I ever find my firecracker? When will my notebook start? It is easy to say I can just fix this by not dwelling on the past but when it comes down to actually not doing it or moving forward I find it a lot more difficult. I find it best to not express any of these emotions and disguise my true feelings behind kind eyes and a friendly smile.

Success

What are you perceptions of success? Threw out the years I have observed, listened, and thought about those who say they are successful and those who really are. So lets define success. The dictionary states it as achievement of something intended or desired. I have come to realize that success can only be measured by those who do the achieving. For example since Wednesday I have been running over 102 fever and it even went over103 at times. Success for me was when I was finally able to eat one slice of peach and keep it down. On a normal day many of us, including myself, don't even think about eating as a successful thing but for me this week I was proud of myself.
How do you measure whether or not someone is successful? One person can not be successful all the time and in everything. Donald Trump is known for starting his own business and making himself "successful" in the business world. In actuality his father gave him money to start his business he never earned it himself. I'm not saying he did not know what to do with that money, because he did, but I'm sure he would have had a much harder time and would not have been as "successful" if he had to earn his starter money first. We could also look at his attitude, his people skills, his passion for humans vs. wealth, his family, or even just bringing it back to the beginning with his body.
Would I consider him successful? I would want him to be my business partner so yes for the business end but not really for anything else. Over all I would not consider him successful. I would define someone being successful when they have happiness and a well balanced life full of family, friends, money, career, and love. I also feel that it is an individual concept. Who am I to judge someone and say they are not successful but someone else is. That is my success and I will follow that. Nobody else has to follow my success outline but I will. I concentrate on my success only and I'm not worried about what other people are doing. When I achieve my success I will be happy and when others achieve their success they will be happy.
To what extent would I give something up in order to be more successful? Well according to my definition I would already have everything and would not have to give something up. Also, if someone was already successful why do you need more? Stop being greedy and just be happy with what you have.
Can success be contagious? The only way you will have success is if you really want it. If you do you will do everything in your power to get it. If not you won't work as hard. I can not have success for myself and then cough on you and you will have it. The only thing that is contagious is my attitude about it. Then again, you need to want it to get it.
Everyone has their demands and everyone has their problems. The best thing to do is focus on yourself and not worry about anyone else and stop comparing. Be your own success not someone who follows other people.